Are they important? We keep telling ourselves no, it’s the inner beauty that counts.

Yeah, right.

Realistically speaking, yes, beauty is important. Very important. Just open the tv. Zap through channels. Gossipgirl. 90210. Pretty Little Liars. It’s not only the television. Look at musicians.  Taylor Swift. Beyonce. Avril Lavigne. Katy Perry. Shakira. Movie actresses. Angelina Jolie. Anne Hathaway. Halle Berry. Scarlet Johansson.

Yes, some of these artists actually have talent. But the reality is that there a lot of very talented artists out there but only little of them actually get the chance that these pretty ladies get. Did you know that Charlize Theron was discovered in a bank, having a fight with the teller? I’m pretty sure she wasn’t shinning with stardom back then, she simply distinguished because she was beautiful.

My lovely readers, this is The Law of Attraction right there. This is the law that our society has created, the law that gives the attractive and beautiful more oppurtunities, more success, better income, and many advantages in our daily lives. It isn’t fair, but it happens each and everyday.

At first I thought it was kind of stupid, but the songs and dances are so good I’m actually brushing aside all my negative thoughts. It’s also kind of my thing to hate on the hip- popular – a la mode or whatever you call it so I was automatically disliking Glee from the second it got popular (I didn’t know about it before it was popular so I wasn’t lovin it or anything). These days I’ve reached a somewhat peaceful state of mind and I’ve realized that it’s absurd to hate on something just because everyone loves it, I mean, what if it’s actually good? It can be actually good. Like Titanic. Titanic is very good. Or, the Beatles. They were pretty popular. They were amazingly good. Best band ever. So yeah, from now on, I’m never judging a book by it’s cover.

Welllllllllllll. Since summer’s getting close, the college counselor in my school wants me to plan what i’m going to do in the summer already. I’m going to go a summer school abroad but I can’t decide where. U.S.A.? Canada? U.K.? I’ve already been to U.S.A. last summer and I want to get a taste of other cultures, but…on the other hand, I had a lot of fun in the U.S.A. and in my mind, I feel like I want to go there for college but that just might be because I haven’t seen Canada and U.K. yet. Where do you think I should go? Comment comment!

Sorry for such a short post it’s 1:29 AM right now and I just realized I haven’t made a post in 10 days and I didn’t want you guys to think I abandoned the site again. Ohhh yeah, and also, what do you think about the new design? I’ll probably change it again next week. I like it but the colors kinda don’t match.

I ALMOST FORGOT ! Oscar nominations were announced earlier today!!! Here’s the nominates for the most important awards.

BEST ACTOR IN A LEADING ROLE

• Jesse Eisenberg, The Social Network
• Colin Firth, The King’s Speech
• James Franco, 127 Hours
• Jeff Bridges, True Grit
• Javier Bardem, Biutiful

BEST ACTRESS IN A LEADING ROLE

• Annette Bening, The Kids are All Right
• Nicole Kidman, Rabbit Hole
• Jennifer Lawrence, Winter’s Bone
• Natalie Portman, Black Swan
• Michelle Williams, Blue Valentine

BEST ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE

• Christian Bale, The Fighter
• Mark Ruffalo, The Kids are All Right
• John Hawkes, Winter’s Bone
• Jeremy Renner, The Town
• Geoffrey Rush, The King’s Speech

BEST ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE

• Amy Adams, The Fighter
• Helena Bonham Carter, The King’s Speech
• Hailee Steinfeld, True Grit
• Melissa Leo, The Fighter
• Jacki Weaver, Animal Kingdom

BEST DIRECTOR

• Darren Aronofsky, Black Swan
• David Fincher, The Social Network
• Tom Hooper, The King’s Speech
• Joel Coen and Ethan Coen, True Grit
• David O. Russell, The Fighter

It’s a shame but I’ve only watched The Kids Are All Right out of this list. Black Swan hasn’t came here yet, we have it’s pirate copy but I wanna watch it in theaters. If you didn’t know, Natalie Portman has won the Golden Globes Best Actress Award for it. My father’s seen it and he says although she is pretty good in it, she doesn’t deserve an oscar. What do you thinkkkkkk ? !

You meet thousands of people, and then you meet one person… and it changes your life… forever.

Hard-partying, emotionally-detached man meets sensitive, artist woman with fatal disease. They fall in love. They fall out of love. Will man come to his senses? Will woman allow herself to feel love despite downhill course of disease? Will we keep watching this dreck? Will attractive people getting undressed and having sex keep our attention? You know all the answers to these questions, as this film is just a rehash of dozens that came before it.

Where to start…. Even though I went with high expectations, Love & Other Drugs didn’t really satisfy me. Boy meets girl. They surprisingly fall in love. What else is new? The story outline was so obvious that I knew what was going to turn out from the first 5 minutes. Even before that. I knew the whole movie from watching it’s trailor and i’m not even kidding.

Jake Gyllenhaal (incredibly hot, btw) plays this charming shit-head womenizer who just basically fucks every girl who comes along. He is incredibly flirty and no one ever says no to him. Although he seems very confident and sure of himself and so on he actually has a very low self esteem because his father never appreciated him as a child. He even dropped out of Med School for it. He has never said “i love you” to anyone, including his parents, and he can not commit into a relationship.

Okay, first of all, how classic is this?! I’m pretty sure all of you who haven’t watched the movie yet understood what it’s all about already. Charming jerk surprisingly falling in love with the one girl that rejects him… Like, gee, this is even more cliche then the “boy meets girl” stereotype. These days I’m starting to think that charming shit-head jerk boys have became more common then normal boys with feelings. I mean just look at the movies. In most, boys are portrayed as these flirtatious, can’t settle down to one girl, uses everyone for sex, doesn’t do relationships.. blah blah blah.. and of course, in every movie, there is a childhood connection to these problems so they actually make us pity the character.

So anyways, Anne Hathaway plays the love interest of Jake Gyllenhaal. Of course, as the cardinal rule of a modern romantic comedy, she is “different” from any girl Jake has been with. She is cynical, pessimistic and more importantly like Jake, she is deadly scared of committing and relationship because she firmly believes that it’s not going to work out and she’s going to end up being heartbroken.

A very important thing about Anne’s character is that she’s sick with Parkinson. She’s only a level 1, but since there is no cure to Parkinson, her disease is doomed get worse. In her mind, she’s the “diseased girl”, she is needy, pathetic, pitied, hard to take care of, etc. That’s why she tries to be so strong and independent. She can’t commit because she is so desperate to be able to take care of herself, she can’t admit to herself that she needs someone. This is one of the rare parts i liked about this movie because it displays the sick person psychology very well. Another thing that I liked was that the movie was set in 1996, the recent-past. Even though it was only 15 years ago, everything was very different from now and it really made me think. They didn’t have proper cellphones, computers, softwares were just being produced, they didn’t have facebook, they didn’t text eachother, they had just found viagra, prozac wasn’t popular, etc. I was particularly apalled by the fact that they didn’t have INTERNET. Like, i still haven’t fully grasped it. This really made me think in context of how internet changed our lives.

Ahh, i’m inspired now. I’m going to make another post about this.

Oh, I was almost forgetting, if you haven’t figured yourself, Jake and Anne end up together after a dramatic set of ups & downs and at the end realizing that they can’t live without eachother.

And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while

Ok,ok, i know this song is old now.. but believe it or not, i’ve just discovered it. My friends have already lashed me for now knowing it before, i don’t need another set of “wtf?”s thank you. Anyways, to the point…

ISN’T IT SO WONDERFUL?

I just love how it sounds so… earnest. It’s not like other cheesy love songs, “oh i love you your my life” type of bullshit. It feels like he really feels the songs when he sings. It’s not that the lyrics are so deep or anything, in fact, the lyrics are pretty simple and straight to the point. And that’s what i love so much. Simpleness. The production, the music, the lyrics, everything is so simple. Yet it’s the most amazing pop song i’ve heard in awhile. Fresh, clean, beautiful.

You know, i get it, you hear a song on the radio about a 1000 times, you hate it. The song is ruined. I was listening to it in school and everyone was like “That song is soo lame and sappy, i’m sick of it.” Believe me, I KNOW how you feel. I’m usually the one who declares death to all icky love songs. But this song is different, yes, it might be love song, it might be lame, sappy or icky. But it’s genuine. Bruno Mars is simply in love with a girl and wants to sing about it. What’s so bad about that?

If you like Bruno Mars, i also suggest Marry You, The Lazy Song, Count On Me and Runaway Baby. Grenade’s pretty popular these days but i’m not very into it. The beat depresses me.

xoxo.

This time, i am determined to actually stick up with continueing blogging. It’s a very nice way of letting your feelings out and plus, reading back all the posts i made gave a kind of a nice feeling. I didn’t even remember all those things had happened… That’s why i always say i need to start keeping a journal but i never actually bother to. But since i made a decision to decrease my usage of facebook, i will have much more free time online… and i will spend it on blogging! How great!

So yeah, i made a decision to decrease my usage of facebook. It’s just so annoying how it’s taken over our lives. I mean, I don’t know about yours, but it certainly has taken over mine & my friends’ lives. I can’t elaborate much but to say the least, i felt like my life was becoming virtual… I’m not sure if people understand this, i can’t explain myself much cause i don’t really know the feeling myself neither. It’s just like… ugh… people started forming friendships, even relationships over facebook, and they would have more contact with one another over facebook then in real life. Which to me is just ridiculous + sad. A couple days ago I realized myself that I had started to use facebook too much and that it was changing who I am in real life. Of course I’m not going to shut it (:P I can’t go that far! ) but i’m going to use it muuccchh muuccchhh less.

Omg there’s so maaaanyy things that happened since i last blogged i just don’t know where to start! I can’t possibly tell them now. So let’s just start on a new page… I’ll bring up important things if they have any relation with a current event. Let me get this out first though, I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND. NOR HAVE I HOOKED UP WITH ANYONE RECENTLY. And it seems like all my friends are either getting boyfriends / hooking up with random people. In fact… I’ve been single for about 5 months. Gosh >.< 5… I mean, i’m not looking for anyone. It’s just that EVERYONE has something going on, except me. I don’t even have a stupid crush on anyone. I’m just completely isolated from the boy area. What the hell is wrong with me? Oh, and by the way, my last relationship was with this guy called Micheal during summer and it was kind of serious. But we live in different countries so we had to break up when summer ended. (Long distance never works so we didnt try that.) The problem isn’t that i’m not over Micheal or anything, that was a looong time ago. I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING PROBLEM IS THOUGH.

AND IT’S FUCKING PISSING ME OFF.

Anyways. Ill be posting very soon.

Cheers <3

Anyways, my grades have been going down lately and my parents are not happy about that and they want me to study more. Apparently, i’m not studying at all. LIE. It’s so annoying how they don’t have to tiniest idea what i do in my room and still assume i don’t study. Ugh!!! It’s not that i don’t study, i can’t concentrate as well as i used to. And that’s puberty i guess. Whatever it is, it’s not something that i can help. So they should just shut the hell up and be contented with the grades i get, and be even more contented that i don’t get lower grades!

Anyways, I’ve gained weight too. Like 3 kgs, which is 6 lbs i think…It’s so frustrating, i hate gaining weight without even being aware of it. Which was the case in this. I just want to loose all my extra weight ASAP!!! But the thing is, i don’t have time to do sports because i have to study either for MUN or exams and i can’t find time. On the contrary, the conference next thursday is going to be my last conference for a month and i won’t have a lot of exams in between, so i can finally loose weight and rest whilst.

Hm, pretty much for now. Oh yeah there’s a new girl at our school called Sebelle… She came from a private school in New York. She is nice, she told me that she used to live in the same building with Chace Crawford! How cool is that? She has a blog too. But not like mine, she writes like poems and deep, “what is life” type of writings. I told her i used to have a blog about club penguin, but i didn’t tell her about this one. I don’t want my real life friends to read this because i want to be able to write stuff about the people in my life and get all that is inside of me out.

In MUN, students discuss every world issue there is, from country relations to… say, the effects of global warming on industries. The topics differ in each conference. Each group of students are assigned a country, and it is their responsibility to research their country about the issues they are given. Each student in a delegation get assigned to a commission, for example human rights(mine!), disarmament, ecosoc, security council, etcetc. The conference sessions in the day weren’t really entertaining, but the nights, oh they were amazing! You know, in Netherlands, water is 2.50 euros. As for beer, it’s 50 cents… and vodka is 2.80 euros. You figure the rest.

The most disturbing part of the trip was that we didn’t stay for the party.

( There was a big party for all the students who attended the conference on friday) Our teachers, supposedly, planned our flight back a little too early and they did not know that the party was on friday. -.-